After the operation, I was worried about my job. My family, I was always telling my family, like you know, it’s alright, I’m alive. I have faith in God. He has plans, and I was just hoping I wasn’t a liability at work where, they might see me as I’m not going to be useful and it’s better they get someone that’s fully 100%. But it wasn’t till the second day maybe, seeing my wife and the kids visit the hospital, I start to realise that not only does it affect me, it affects people around me. So I put myself in my little 3 year old shoes, If I was her what’s happening with daddy, is daddy coming home? I put myself in my wife’s shoes. Is my husband going to be around? What do I do if he isn’t? Just sort of like
gives me more determination to be positive. What’s done is done. And it wasn’t because of the gym. It wasn’t because I pushed myself, my heart rate, to hold on my last eight minutes of my 20 minute workout to be 157 bpm. It’s just like wear and tear. I had 16 years of smoking. I had poor diet, my lifestyle, lack of exercise. And because I know I did that myself and it’s so easy to fix if I had the chance. It just gave me my go forward. I know so many people in my family say to me, man I’m alright, I go to gym, I play sport, don’t worry. I can smoke, it’s ok. But why’s that ok, I’m just saying, it can happen to anybody. And that’s what I want to try and teach my kids, to have that knowledge. And not only that, the support staff there, the hospitals give you, the Heart Foundation. You get the pack straight away, it’s like
so many people have gone through it, and they’re prepared for so many more that are going to come the same path. Every question that I ask, they got it there. Services that they offer you for your road to recovery, that’s what they call it, your road to recovery. And I like that, this is my chance. Yeah I understand that I have that anxiety, I have that. And I still, maybe I can’t go and smash out, and do box fit like the rest of my friends
or go and train until you drop, fatigue. But now I’ve got to look at it a different way, just go gradually.